if you wanna go, i'll let you have it
since i'm getting rid of habits
and ppl who induce thoughts
that make the flesh jump like a rabbit
greatness, gotta grab it
have it
hold it
boldness
coldness?
no-ness
no mess
tired of being frustrated
at the same mistake
almost wanna be castrated
but this is blogger, so i let out my feelings
i don't see how ppl think sin's appealing
well it is appealing
world whipped out whip appeal
and then made it creamy, delicious like some cool whip
get whipped with a many stripes
day and night
because i didn't finish the fight?
i am my own kryptonite
that's why i don't like me
i really wanna fight me
break me
shake me
i sorta kinda hate me
this just might sound crazy
to people who don't know
what the struggle is like
when you're your own foe
Spirit from head to toe
or at least it is supposed to be
tear down my own temple
then repent to try and build it up in 3
Lord, please forgive me
Mercy
Grace
i need....
i see

what's baking in my brain 8.23.08

he says I'm out in left field... for real? Could've swore i was anointed and God spoke right in my ear, and said "Have no fear... I'm here" to lead you and to guide on this Christian frontier... but I'm not Hip-Hop, I don't kick slang and my pants, they don't drop, below my waist-line, nor my behind, Satan got behind, now I'm free up in my mind. except for this one habitual thing. and i keep doing it habitually. all i gotta do is stop but it ain't simple to me. at the time when my flesh is raging like a beast. but yeah it's gotta die, i'm strong so now it's beat. kick it like a kick makes bass in a beat. because i want my heartbeat back. when i seeked His face every hour, with power, non-sour, and definately not devoured. When i was the flower not the weed, sowed seeds, made trees, was me. now i'm not me, and if i was die, my heaven trip would be unlikely, that's why i gotta fight me. like a boxer on Fight Night Round 3, if it takes 100 rounds, fight me, bite me, light me on fire if i have to. that's the mind i gotta have, it's what i gotta do. from keeping that bad boy from doing what he wants to do. this is a war of the mind and i cannot lose. and i won't. taunt the devil when he's stomped. not like Kirk, 'cause that ain't what God wants. I wanna change the world, but i got some hinderances, God push em out the way so this race i can finish. i know i sound repetitive, but i have to end this. sin-ness. make me sin less. forever. forever? forever ever? clever ain't the way that i need to be, when i'm battling with me, these people should see. He in me. transparency's percent is about 80. make it 0, no asking questions or debating. and iknow i'm gonna have haters. but i'll wipe em off like i do my gators... lol later